MY BIG BROTHER

I had been a fanatic of the Phenomenal reality TV show of ABS CBN’s Pinoy Big Brother that I had follow each season and watched over it and never missed a segment up to the Big Night.

I see myself as one of the PBB house mates in the Big Brother house where each day is an endless task, a goal to achieve and a competition I have to win – a competition which rewards more than a million or any amount could buy but an honor and prestige to be proud of. PBB housemates stay in the house for 126 days with “kuya” as the big brother; I live in a bigger house where tasks and responsibilities are more complicated, where I live more than 126 days but a lifetime for me to complete such tasks – that indeed if I live in errors I will make my stay even shorter, where my “big brother doesn’t converse with his voice through my ears but speak through my heart – my living guidance counselor – the living “God”.

My big brother has taught me to become what I am today – a man of dreams and ambition, of attitude and fear on his words. I become astray for sometime in my life that at some point I felt I wanted to have my force eviction and get out of his house. But my big brother gave me chances to renew and led me back to the right path enabling me to realize that indeed I can be part of the big winner which is eternal life if I follow his house rules.

I am into his service right now. For as his Golden Rule says: “What you do to the least of your brothers, you do it unto me”. I believe being an educator is one way of becoming his servant where I stood to nurture values, enhance skills, and inculcated discipline to young minds.

Time moved swiftly that I realize that the big prize is too high that I have to work harder of getting it. Along with it is sacrifice, failures, and defeat but all paid off with victory. Yes! It has somehow torn me into pieces but I never stopped believing – there can be miracles when you believe, right? With this, I made a very impulsive decision that I went further with my overwhelming optimism. I took up Bachelor of Science in Nursing and experienced the most difficult times I can ever imagine. The sleepless nights and burning gas pain during long hours of clinical exposures. It has crowned me with glory when I finished and walk the aisle of success. Yet, the burden for the preparation of the board exam is another war to conquer. It has left me hanging and perhaps my anxiety right now is seemingly increasing. Yet, My Big Brother is still standing and watching over me for he is the director of my life; He has always drafted a plan for me.

My big brother is your big brother too; we are sharing the same house. However, we do not compete with others but with ourselves into making it on the Big Night. And on the big night we will all be seeing each other in the finals where we will be judge according to how we performed in the house he just lend us. He has prepared a big prize for all qualified winners and my fervent hope that we will all be there and share the prize.

With all honesty, I feel guilty at times because I made mistakes and makes a lame excuse that I am just human. I have this guilt feeling because it is not the same PBB I loved to watch that has season 1, 2, 3 and so on. Our Big Brother who is God holds his BIG NIGHT just ones.